Tony Snow's Testimony
This is an outstanding testimony from Tony Snow, President Bush's former Press
Secretary, and his fight with cancer. Commentator and broadcaster Tony Snow,
announced that he had colon cancer in 2005. Following surgery and chemotherapy,
Snow joined the Bush Administration in April 2006 as press secretary.
Unfortunately, on March 23, 2007, Snow, 51, a husband and father of three,
announced the cancer had recurred, with tumors found in his abdomen,- leading
to surgery in April, followed by more chemotherapy. Snow went back to work in
the White House Briefing Room on May 30, but has resigned since, 'for economic
reasons,' and to pursue ' other interests.' He died recently. It needs
little intro... it speaks for itself.
'Blessings arrive in unexpected packages, - in my case, cancer. Those of us
with potentially fatal diseases - and there are millions in America today -
find ourselves in the odd position of coping with our mortality while trying to
fathom God's will. Although it would be the height of presumption to declare
with confidence 'What It All Means,' Scripture provides powerful hints and
consolations. The first is that we shouldn't spend too much time trying to
answer the 'why' questions: Why me? Why must people suffer? Why can't someone
else get sick? We can't answer such things, and the questions themselves often
are designed more to express our anguish than to solicit an answer.
I don't know why I have cancer, and I don't much care. It is what it is, a
plain and indisputable fact. Yet even while staring into a mirror darkly, great
and stunning truths begin to take shape. Our maladies define a central feature
of our existence: We are fallen. We are imperfect. Our bodies give out. But
despite this, - or because of it, - God offers the possibility of salvation and
grace. We don't know how the narrative of our lives will end, but we get to
choose how to use the interval between now and the moment we meet our Creator
face-to-face.
Second, we need to get past the anxiety. The mere thought of dying can send
adrenaline flooding through your system. A dizzy, unfocused panic seizes you.
Your heart thumps; your head swims. You think of nothingness and swoon. You
fear partings; you worry about the impact on family and friends. You fidget and
get nowhere. To regain footing, remember that we were born not into death, but
into life,- and that the journey continues after we have finished our days on
this earth. We accept this on faith, but that faith is nourished by a
conviction that stirs even within many non-believing hearts - an intuition that
the gift of life, once given, cannot be taken away. Those who have been
stricken enjoy the special privilege of being able to fight with their might,
main, and faith to live fully, richly, exuberantly - no matter how their days
may be numbered.
Third, we can open our eyes and hearts. God relishes surprise. We want lives of
simple, predictable ease,- smooth, even trails as far as the eye can see, - but
God likes to go off-road. He provokes us with twists and turns. He places us in
predicaments that seem to defy our endurance; and comprehension - and yet
don't. By His love and grace, we persevere. The challenges that make our hearts
leap and stomachs churn invariably strengthen our faith and grant measures of
wisdom and joy we would not experience otherwise.
'You Have Been Called'
Picture yourself in a hospital bed. The fog of anesthesia has begun to wear
away. A doctor stands at your feet, a loved one holds your hand at the side.
'It's cancer,' the healer announces. The natural reaction is to turn to God and
ask him to serve as a cosmic Santa. 'Dear God, make it all go away. Make
everything simpler.' But another voice whispers: 'You have been called.' Your
quandary has drawn you closer to God, closer to those you love, closer to the
issues that matter,- and has dragged into insignificance the banal concerns
that occupy our 'normal time.'
There's another kind of response, although usually short-lived an inexplicable
shudder of excitement, as if a clarifying moment of calamity has swept away
everything trivial and tiny, and placed before us the challenge of important
questions. The moment you enter the Valley of the Shadow of Death,
things change. You discover that Christianity is not something doughy, passive,
pious, and soft. Faith may be the substance of things hoped for, the evidence
of things not seen. But it also draws you into a world shorn of fearful
caution. The life of belief teems with thrills, boldness, danger, shocks,
reversals, triumphs, and epiphanies.
Think of Paul, traipsing through the known world and contemplating trips to
what must have seemed the antipodes (Spain), shaking the dust from his
sandals, worrying not about the morrow, but only about the moment. There's
nothing wilder than a life of humble virtue, - for it is through selflessness
and service that God wrings from our bodies and spirits the most we ever could
give, the most we ever could offer, and the most we ever could do.
Finally, we can let love change everything. When Jesus was faced with the
prospect of crucifixion, he grieved not for himself, but for us. He cried for Jerusalem before entering
the holy city. From the Cross, he took on the cumulative burden of human sin
and weakness, and begged for forgiveness on our behalf.
We get repeated chances to learn that life is not about us, that
we acquire purpose and satisfaction by sharing in God's love for others.
Sickness gets us part way there. It reminds us of our limitations and
dependence. But it also gives us a chance to serve the healthy. A minister
friend of mine observes that people suffering grave afflictions often acquire
the faith of two people, while loved ones accept the burden of two peoples'
worries and fears.
'Learning How to Live'.
Most of us have watched friends as they drifted toward God's arms, not with
resignation, but with peace and hope. In so doing, they have taught us not how
to die, but how to live. They have emulated Christ by transmitting the power
and authority of love. I sat by my best friend's bedside a few years ago as a
wasting cancer took him away. He kept at his table a worn Bible and a 1928
edition of the Book of Common Prayer. A shattering grief disabled his family,
many of his old friends, and at least one priest. Here was an humble and very
good guy, someone who apologized when he winced with pain because he thought it
made his guest uncomfortable. He retained his equanimity and good humor
literally until his last conscious moment. 'I'm going to try to beat [this
cancer],' he told me several months before he died. 'But if I don't, I'll see
you on the other side.'
His gift was to remind everyone around him that even though God doesn't promise
us tomorrow, he does promise us eternity, - filled with life and love we cannot
comprehend, - and that one can in the throes of sickness point the rest of us
toward timeless truths that will help us weather future storms. Through such
trials, God bids us to choose: Do we believe, or do we not? Will we be bold
enough to love, daring enough to serve, humble enough to submit, and strong
enough to acknowledge our limitations? Can we surrender our concern in things
that don't matter so that we might devote our remaining days to things that
do?
When our faith flags, he throws reminders in our way. Think of the prayer
warriors in our midst. They change things, and those of us who have been on the
receiving end of their petitions and intercessions know it. It is hard to
describe, but there are times when suddenly the hairs on the back of your neck
stand up, and you feel a surge of the Spirit. Somehow you just know: Others
have chosen, when talking to the Author of all creation, to lift us up, - to
speak of us!
This is love of a very special order. But so is the ability to sit back and appreciate
the wonder of every created thing. The mere thought of death somehow makes
every blessing vivid, every happiness more luminous and intense. We may not
know how our contest with sickness will end, but we have felt the ineluctable
touch of God.
We don't know much, but we know this:
No matter where we are, no matter what we do, no matter how bleak or
frightening our prospects, each and everyone of us who believe, each and every
day, lies in the same safe and impregnable place, in the hollow of God's
hand.' - Tony Snow